Lost

I reach out into the dark. My eyes cannot see. My hands do not touch. I sense you out there in the dark. Just beyond my finger tips I know you are there. Can you hear me? Do you see me? Are you reaching out for me too?


Still I reach out. Slowly moving forward. Afraid and alone.... I know you are out there.

Boys.... silly silly boys.....

So, I have no idea why boys think it is so hard to communicate with a girl......... For the most part we are simple to make us happy. Say we are pretty! That will do it, I don't care if my hair looks funny or my eye liner is smeared, ignore it, suck it up and tell me I am pretty dang it. There is a reason not all girls are lesbians... It's because we want a MAN!!! Don't get me wrong little boys are fun to take to the park or the zoo or to laugh at when they are being a big little man if I am babysitting, but I do not want to date the little boy. throwing a hissey fit because YOU didnt get your way...... Not a good idea, sorry. You sir are more of a girl than I am, don't ignore me and then blame me for being insensitive and not checking to make sure you are ok. It is not the way to convince me you are a real man. Jackas...... ok, I admit not all men are this way. You do not need to tell me it is a proven fact that if you are mean to a girl she will do what you want because that is not all girls either, you be mean to me and I am not going to bake you cupcakes to make you nice to me. Throw something at your face maybe..... in fact probably. In short..... or from looking above In rant, Be nice or I wil kick your freaking ass!!!! Thank you,

Warning: Female "stuff" ahead

Ok..... So I am super annoyed today and guess what, I am going to share. So I am kickin it on my morning high singing several musical numbers and doin some high kicks when i get "The feeling." Know what I mean, the "Either i just pee'd my pants or started my period" feeling. Well Thank you Mother Frikin nature!!!!! Thank the Lord I chose the dark jeans today, good thing I caught it early. Crap these were really cute under-roo's and I wonder if that will come out. So here is the shame I know more than likely every girl has had to do.... Super uncomfortable, very embarrassing, and it just feels like EVERYONE knows....... Raise of hands, how many girls have done the folded up make your own pad/tampon to stick into the crevice until you can get to a real one? ** points to self ** this girl right here.

Raisins

I do not know what it is....... All of the sudden I have become obsessed with this little wrinkled fruit!!! Chock full of iron packed into its loose little folds of skin I find them amazingly delightful. Here are some of my favories:
- Oatmeal raisin cookies
- Carrotcake (its fruit and veggie!)
- Raisin bran cereal
- Oatmeal (this one I was unsure of but it works)
- Trail mix!!!

I have decided that the M&M's company needs to make a candy coated chocolate dipped raisin. *takes a bow* That is all.

So here it is, another day another lunch break I forgot to pack. For those that don’t know there is a Taco Bell across the street that gets a lot of business from the girls in our office that find then selves in this same predicament. So I go next door, I stand in line to get my good ol’ number 6 (Mmm Chicken chalupa, taco, and a Diet Pepsi) and pull out the old debit card, good for every day on the go moments or in my case every time I want to make a purchase. So I get my tray and turn to find a place to park it and eat before the walk back to the office. So as I am walking through the “dining room” a slightly off balance man holding a fishing pole steps in front of me. “Excuse me, I didn’t catch enough fish to eat today, do have some money for me?” Of course I don’t I use plastic for everything and anything. So I open my mouth to apologize by telling him I don’t carry cash. The man looks down slightly sad and starts to turn away. All of the sudden his hand flashes out to Snatch a taco right off of my tray!! Yes sir it is true. I look up in shock to see a homeless man and his fishing pole bookin it through the parking lot clutching my taco as he goes. I didn’t really care about the taco, he obviously needed it much more than I did and half of the time throw it away anyways but how shocking and unexpectedly random is that?!

Que dream sequence......

Nothing for April...... Sorry I was a slacker.

Yeah so I had a dream last night that I was Prego….. like 8 months HUGE!!! And I was watching Victor (my sisters kid reached terrible 2’s this week) and he was throwing a tantrum and rolling around on this Redwood deck patio thing. So there was a hole cut in it where this tree was growing up with like a foot or so of clearance around it and Victor rolled into this hole and under the deck. So all the sudden he stops crying and giggles and I hear this rattle like a rattle snake and then he just starts screaming!!! So I like kick the boards off the patio under carriage part and someone is calling 911, (I dunno who it is, I can just hear them behind me on the phone flippig out). So I pull Victor out and he is crying and hugging me and sayin his little nah nuh thingie ( he calls me na-na like a banana) and the ambulance comes for us and I go into labor holding him. So were in the same hospital room and my sister gets there and I’m having the baby and she’s all talking to victor telling him please don’t die please please, so the Dr. tells her that he will be ok and it looks like a baby snake bit him and the venom wasn’t fully developed and junk and he would be totally fine. So my sister comes running over to me just as they hand me my baby and I start to drop it so she takes it from me and I start having these seizures and junk,
So…….. turns out the big snake bit my hand when I pulled victor out as it was just about to bite him and I died. ….. D-E-D dead. So now my sister has 2 babies.

This is what I get after a lovely dinner of 3 mint Oreos, 1 slice of bologna, 2 dill pickles, and a sugar free Poweraid. I wonder if I totally did the Julia and Julia thing and ate random weird things at bed time I could blog the food induced dreams………….. Good times.

I wonder

So this is a bit of an emo topic but I have been curious about it for awhile now. So say the me of 2010 goes back and kills the me of 2005, just shoots her in the face kills her. (Lets see the CSI guys figure that one out shall we) So now the 2010 kills her, does the 2010 version of me stay alive in the place of the 2005 me? If so what happens when we hit 2010? Do I automatically go back to 2005 again and start this all over again as a loop? If I do start a new time line and it goes farther than 2010 do I have to continue to wait for another future me to come kill off this version of me too? My mind tends to wander off on reasoning like this from time to time, no harm to anyone but myself I suppose.